Day one-hundred-twenty

Busy day, but less busy than usual. I don't know how long it will last, but I hope it lasts as long as God will allow it.

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One of the most important things we do in our lives as believers is deal with the sin that arises within us. Lately, it seems like I've been carrying around a lot of bad attitudes and trying to make sense of where they've been coming from. It has only rather recently begun to occur to me that God is dealing with the sin in my life that I didn't realize was there.

Before I got saved, my way of dealing with trouble was by burying any bad feelings or attitudes and essentially ignoring them until I couldn't see them anymore. Of course, this has the negative side effect of basically rendering you incapable of feeling anything resembling care or concern, at least for anyone beside yourself. I know from where I speak; I tell people that before I got saved, it wasn't that I didn't care, it was that I couldn't care.

I had an important realization this morning (it seems like I've been having a lot of these lately). I've struggled with fearfulness with a long time; I was more or less ruled by fear. I realized that I was still struggling with that fear, the kind that comes from not trusting God like I should. I had to confess and turn from it, and thank God for His forgiveness

Update-8:33 pm: I was asked to work overtime tonight. I turned it down as there's not much to do, and I feel less inclined to work overtime anyway. Christina, the new helper we just got in the digital room, has just moved out so she can learn to operate the die-cutter. My manager knows, so hopefully we can get the help we need. We've been ahead the past couple of days, but I know it won't stay that way, and I hope we can get the help I know we'll need.