I finally feel comfortable enough that I can sit upright for a little while. I'm sittng in the easy chair in our living room as I write this, well aware that the longer I sit, the more uncomfortable I will grow (and am growing). It is actually more comfortable for me to stand than sit, and I can't even do that for very long.
I keep thinking about my job interview this Monday. If my back isn't better by then, I'll have to reschedule, something I'd rather not do. I could always just go, but I run the risk of getting worse before I get better. I still can't walk very far or even at a regular pace. After I spoke to them on Thursday afternoon, they sent me an email that said to contact them ASAP if I couldn't make my appointment. I can look back and realize that this was a blessing at least. God does watch out for me (and all of us) in ways we don't see coming.
I also find myself wondering what God is trying to teach me with this back issue. It is patience? Is it trust? Is it both, or even neither? Is it to take better care of myself physically (something that's been weighing on my mind more and more)? I don't know. Scripture reminds us to "wait on The Lord", and trust that He will accomplish what He intends in His own time. I confess that I am rarely as patient as I ought to be, with The Lord or anyone else. Although I have become more patient than before, I still have a long way to go. The problem is that I can't wait to get there.
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Okay, I'm standing up now. It's still way too uncomfortable to sit for very long.
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