Sometimes, it surprises me how, after being saved and more than two years of spiritual growth plus the cultivation of several very precious friendships, it is still so difficult for me to engage other people.
It's still all too easy for me to hold other people at arm's length. Some of it is due to shyness. I can still be as shy around people I know as among a room full of strangers.
I think it's been weighing on my mind today for a reason. Something had been clearly weighing on the mind of a co-worker of mine. She seemed to have gotten some kind of bad news, of what I do not know. I thought about asking her what was wrong, but I didn't know how. She spoke to another lady we work with about it, but didn't say anything to the rest of us. Our workspace isn't really the best place in which to talk privately anyway.
I thought about asking her what was wrong, but I didn't really know how. She felt comfortable enough to share what was wrong with someone else, but not with the rest of us. I made me think that perhaps I shouldn't intrude, and in any case, she was able to continue working and was in better spirits by the end of the day.
I pray (thought not as often as I should) that God would help me to overcome the reticence I have toward reaching out to other people. Some of it may be pride, some of it may be shyness, some of it may be me having to deal with not caring for others for so much of my life and having to deal with the effects of that:
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