After yesterday, I didn't have anything prepared for today. Usual things happened today: got up, went to church, was supposed to go to a fundraising barbecue, but did not go as I have no money until Thursday. I didn't want to show up to a fundraiser empty-handed.
…
Lately, I've been praying that God would cultivate a more humble attitude in me. What's been troubling to me is that it's forced me to see what a rotten attitude I've been carrying around with me that I didn't even realize was there. It seems like I'll have moments where it's staring me in the face how mean or hateful or irreverant I can be.
I do believe God is drawing this attitude out so that I may see it, and confess and turn from it. What makes it so troubling is how painful it is to know that this attitude is there. I spent so much of my life burying how I felt (this is before I got saved), and now I think it's starting to all come out. I'm grateful that God is working on me, but I admit that it can be very disheartening to see all this rottenness coming to the surface.
I realize I should be grateful that I didn't have to see this all at once when I was first saved. God is unfathomably patient with all believers and indeed the world as He saves those He intends to be His own (2 Peter 3:8-9). I pray that I would trust God as He continues to conform me to the image to His Son.
No comments:
Post a Comment